|"When things get hard, stop for awhile and look back and see how far you've come. Don't forget how rewarding it is." - KTH|
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01:49, Wednesday, February 17
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so, people might already know or can't even bother by it but because i have been searching for this filter for ages, it matters a lot to me (lol) first of all, i dont even know if this is the exact app used by bangtan, cos they're using a different phone brand than mine so the app might vary or not be the same at all but i heard they used wondercam and b612. i think the filter in this app might be the same with b612 cos its from the same developer which is LINE. but after a few comparison and also filter tests on my own photo and few of the photo they edited, it kinda match so i assume it is the same filter (hoho). i even changed my instagram feed right after i found this filter (lol no chill) cos i love it so much, bless bangtan for thisss.
Application: Line Camera
Filter used: Maple
Phone used: Oppo Joy
so, below i'm gonna show you the comparison of the photo i edit by myself and the photo posted by the boys. if you felt like it didn't match at all, i'm sorry cos i think it matched tho (i also have nearsightedness so excuse my eyesight)
edited by me;
posted by bangtan (mostly vmin);
14:35, Wednesday, January 27well hello again, now an interesting topic. cos instagram have been my latest addiction, so i'm going to talk about it today. nowadays, there's this thing called aesthetic and feeds and themes on instagram right? i have seen a lot and i gotta say i am very amused cos i think i have this love for aesthetic things so much. it's just so pleasing to watch how all of the picture harmonize each other you know. so a little peak to my instagram feed, i just started this dark but contrast feed and i think it's not bad so, i continue with this theme.
you must know that i don't have a theme before i found this one cos i just started using vsco app to edit all of my pictures. before, my feed is all messed up cos i was trying to find the best filters to use, but in the end i learn that it's not about the fixed filters, it's how you view the picture and toned them to make them look good together. so, what did i learn from trying so much? consistency. seriously, if you don't have the will to go through all of your picture to find that one consistency, i don't think you can make it. like, i also tried to post my idols photos here too cos i am a fangirl but i cant seem to fit their filters to my feed cos most of their photos are bright and hd while all of my photos are taken only from my oppo joy, so the quality isn't always the best but i actually like how most of my pictures turn out tho. i have seen a lot of tips and a lots of accounts that are more awesome in this feed thingy. there are a lot kind of feeds tho. i tried this one in my fangirl acc, and it turns out okay tho,
i called it perspective, for those who doesnt always have square photos and would like to keep them full even in the thumbnails, i think this is a good feeds for them, the key is to put your picture in this order, horizontal, vertical, horizontal, vertical using the square app and it'll turn out like this. like, it didn't clash with your other photos (i really love this kinds of feeds tbh)
there's also this filter based which i think most of the people familiar about already. you can see one type of filter they used for each picture and it just matches each other very well
11:39,i have a very long free time this morning so i decided to post two things today, one on this, the supplements i have been taking after i stopped all my medicine from the hospital. second, i'll be talking about my recent addiction, instagram feed. ehee, so let's start with this kinda bored but important post.
to start things off, let me tell you what illness i have been diagnosed with. it's called SLE (Systemic Lupus Erythemathosus) and it's not a common thing cos it's an autoimmune illness where your antibody (which supposed to protect your body) is attacking even the healthy cells in your body. for short, your antibody is confused. so, what's exactly does this illness do to me? well, because it affects your organs, the signs doesn't appear outside. that means, i look healthy all the time. even when i'm not. like right now, i look as healthy as ever but in real i am actually having a third degree of a kidney disease, and also proteinuria. well, if i put it that way it looks pretty bad, so let's just take this two things that been bother me a lot and messes up with my class schedule too. it's migraine and fever. i'm fine if it happens weekly or monthly but it keeps on happening in and off throughout the day which kinda drives me insane too somehow. i can't sleep well, cos when it happens at night, i can't wake up early. and if it happens while i'm having classes, i have to skip them. it looks pretty normal but it's not to be honest. when it struck it actually hurt. so, i am that kid who is famous for taking lots and lots of MCs to the point i just fed up on it. okay, we're getting off track here. so, as i said before, i stopped taking the prescribe medicines from the doctors cos my father is worried about the amount of drugs my body have to digest cos it's many, like 10 different types of drugs (if i'm not mistaken), and to make it worse, there's even steroids. yknow how it can effect your changes in body weight and hormones, the worst era for me. anyway, after i stopped taking all the medicine, i started taking Elken health product, which they called MRT product. it's a set of healthy and organic supplements which helps bring back the more healthier "you". i took two to four kinds of the product before but for now i'm just gonna talk about two, which i'm diligently taking every morning like a breakfast. it's spirulina and elfahex.
i don't know how many people know about this but i'm not gonna talk about how it's scientifically proven or whatnot, i'm just gonna say how it felt like taking spirulina from a 21-year-old girl view. firstly, it's a chew-able pill. okay, when i say pill, it's not the bitter panadol pills okay? it tastes like nuts, yes like you're eating cashew nuts plus pistachio nuts (i am not exaggerating things but it really have that taste tho) but because this thing is green and you chew them, it leaves green mark (lmao), so what my father did is just swallow them like you would normally swallow pills. it's just small, and i took 5 per day. cos the effect of this is it brings back the metabolism of your day. it keeps you active throughout the day. so, if your took more than 10 it might can gives you fever (cos you're gonna be too hyper), so 5 is enough for me. It actually helps big time for a person who have no sleep cycle. I sleep at anytime and wake up and any time too so i literally have worse time management. so, by having this energy driven supplement, really boost up myself as a student to still go to class amidst whatever is attacking on my kidney and whatnot. and to add things up, i even have a waist pain. yeah, but having this can really makes me so active that sometimes i forget that i have a waist pain. so, to conclude, Spirulina is a really good supplement for those who needs a little energy booster throughout the day.
here is one supplement that is made especially for a confused autoimmune like me (lol) the function of this softgells is to strengthen the autoimmune of your body (see, i told you it was made for me) not much to say about this (other than it's very pricey) but it does help a lot for an autoimmune patient like me who 100% relying on supplements.i really stopped all of the prescribed drugs and started on this products and alhamdulillah, i am becoming much and much more composed now. eventhough i can't really stopped the flares from happening at times but atleast when it happened, i have enough strength to fight through it. so, i am very glad that i took these two products. oh yeah about elfahex, the one i'm taking is a softgel, it may look like the protein supplement ones where you can just bite on it. i dont know how to explain softgel lmao but you'll know once you see it. so i took one per day. Again, elfahex is made to strengthen your autoimmune system so its made especially for everyone then. because sometimes when we overwork ourselves or go to a very unfamiliar places, our autoimmune can be quite stressed out too so, why not give it a little boost ey?
I said the word boost a lot, haha. Maybe it's because i lack of energy and i become more tired cos i keep on sitting down instead of doing exercises. well, i didnt do any exercise at all but i do strolling at night quite often tho. so, i am also trying my best to change how my lifestyle is to be more healthier eventhough most of the time i can't help but to munch out on junk food because of stress. but now, i even stopped taking 3-in-1 drinks, i mostly drink plain water (it saves a lot of money there). so, as long as i got my plain water i think i can eat anything i want tho (not junk food) and i am glad i didn't have any food restriction.i can eat anything as long as it is halal ^^= i am also hoping to bring back the healthy me that i used to be and stopped worrying people around me too much. pray for me, and i also wishes everyone a great deal of health too. stay hydrated! thanks for taking your time to read this long post of mine. wahh i really haven't write for sooo long now >.< thanks again, and may your day is blessed~
02:59, Sunday, January 24i haven't been in blogger for quite some time eyy hee. me and commitment is really not meant to be. so who is this bestbro? let me take you back to our first meeting each other. tbh, in friendship, i am more comfortable with boys more than girls cos they don't really judge you a lot and fun to be with too. so, the story started when we're both 9 years old. we've been neighbours since i am 6 years old but we only met 3 years later after i found out that we got the same interest. he likes cat and also loves to cycle, and well i just know how to cycle at that age and a cat mania too so we hangout just to find this stray cats anywhere and cycle down the rough hills near our place. gosh memories. so, we even go to the same school but we never got into one class but we still say hi anytime we me met each other. so the real moment where we are inseperable is actually in high school. so it officiallly started at the age 13, he is this emo kid that always been alone while i'm on the other side this cheerful kid who have no worry at all (i'm really at the top of my life lmao) so, when i met him again after our breaks its kinda awkward, cos him and me have grown up so we cant just do the same thing like cycling or finding stray cats until late evening anymore but i'm glad he still wants to hangout with me. i thought its gonna be awkward cos we didnt really talk much when we're in middle school tho, but we actually get along quite well. so, mostly we just gonna meet if we got curricular activity (most of the time, we didnt even plan to met tho) so, after our activity we just hangout to listen to music or walk around talking about random things or he just scare the shit out of me with happy tree friends cos he knows i'm a scaredy cat pssh. but thats only the start of our friendship, nothing much is it? until he got himself a girlfriend. idk he did, but they said, he have been with her for quite a while but he didnt even have feelings for her. i really didnt want to meddle with others affairs but because that girl bothering him so much that i just to have a say. idk what happened mostly but what i know is i gain a friend that day and the best one also i have boyfriend atm just saying. and the next year started, so we're bffs. but there's always a trial. if form 1 isnt going good for him, then form 2 is my dark ages. he have been the most tolerable friend ever, with a group of very patience people cos i suddenly become so emo at that age. obviously because i lost that boyfriend i have been saying as my first love as. i am becoming more emo as the day passes and as a divertion, i found k-pop (bless them) i would call k-pop as my life saviour but i really forget that the real people who have always been there and calming my anxiety attack is the person i should be grateful for. one of them is my bestbro. we have a fight actually because as i finally have a divertion to make the pain less hurtful, he kept on saying ridicule k-pop which makes me felt on fire atm. istg i can just kill him atm but knowing how he can be savage just to make my emotion stronger, i let go of that but my life become more messed up after that. i kept on getting into a wrong relationship but my bestbro would always be there, saying "i told you so" lmao. so our friendhip goes stronger from there. so, as i promise to myself, i wont get into any relationship when spm gonna start, so i am single since i am 16-years old which makes no different to me actually cos the longest relationship i've ever been in is 6 month. like i said, me and commitment is never meant to be. so, as my form 4 started, we become even more closer well i might as well said to the point that even my bestfriend atm would be jealous lmao. we would search for each other and would always being sarcastic everytime we met, but tbh his effort as a friend is very touching. he have always been the one that always search for me tho. if i have to say, the peak of our friendship, must be from our senior years of highschool, him being the most famous photographer at school (well kind of haha) and i'm just a potato being beside him lmao. a fact about being with famous people, people will judge you too. its hard tbh to be comfy around your bestbro when there's judging eyes. the question i would lways get is like "dont you develop feelings" and the statement that i hate so much "boys and girls just cant be best buddies or whatsoever" well sorry to break it to you, apparently we can. yes, there is knida awkward cos with your girlfriends you can just hug if things get hard or saying ily or imy when you misses them but with boys theres some lines you have to take care of. but so far, its just me being boys phobic, so he is the one that have to struggle big time dealing with me. i am never a good friend, we fight mostly because of me. cos idk i'm just too scared at boys (well he is a boy) to the point of ignoring him for days. i sometime dont understand myself
stop overthinkingthis must be the most quote he always said to me. it keeps on bringing me back to reality tbh, thank god for his existence tbh. well, we've been through a lot because of my own childishness so, i'm forever sorry to him. but i am always grateful for having such a nice friend. i am bad at friendship tbh, but i am kinda amused to have a friend this long. like, its 2016 rn, so how many years have that been? 12 years? thats quite a long time. and its not easy to retain it as i am more to a family kinda person. anywhere, everywhere, my family must be there. so, my family must know all my friends very well. not actually. cos i dont like that topic bring up to my family. for me, if thngs doesnt last for more than a year is quite hard for me to introduce them to my family, cos they gonna remember it forever as i'll face them until the day the ground is shaking. so, if my family randomly talk about my friend or even mentioned they name, meaning that they really meant something to me. and because we've known eahc other the longest, ofcourse even our family knows each other. thats only logical as we're neighbours. but, i'm kinda touched to see that i actually have a friend that can get along with my family so well. its so rare for me and having him is a bless indeed. so this post, is supposed to be dedicated for him but i think i went far from praising him tho. haha. i just want to say i'm sorry for not contacting much and ignoring you nowadays. i am just so awkward in conversation irl nowadays, i ignore everyone tbh. i hope you can give me a chance, cos i really hope we can meet and talk over a lot of things like we used to. no matter how awkward it might be, i missed our conversations. no matter how lame i was, i want to keep this friendship. it's so precious to me. i know what i said have hurt you and you've the rights to get mad but i seriously am sorry. i hate myself too when it become too emotional. but i cant help it sometimes. i'm very sorry for hurting you. well there goes for a cheerful post. i know its gonna ended up being like this cos i've done a lot of wrong things to you, but i really want to end this in a cheerful way. so lets try. so, i have been reminiscing the songs we used to listen and i gotta say, it really brings back memories tho. as you know, i am bad with memories but i still remember it so its precious alright. i hope you can atleast remember the happy moments we used to have, cos i'll take my time when i come home, let's meet. this time, i put my life to make up for this moment where i cant be with you for your birthday. let's just do anything or nothing at all. i really missed you bro T^T so, let's end this with a cheerful note!
Happy 21st Birthday to my best bro in this whole wide world, Hykal Fikri. May Allah bless you and i hope you can pursue your dreams. i also wishes that everything will goes on your way easily. may 2016 be the best for you and makes you an even stronger person than before. and tbh, you're never alone. i'm always here, even when i'm not. well you know what i mean. haha, enjoy your day today :D
18:04, Friday, December 26
First of all, I missed being a full-time fangirl :3 I'm quite busy with my boring life, can you believe that. LOL. Today is quite fun as I have time for myself to catch up with whatever is going on in the k-pop world.
Okay, let's talk about this awesome duo. I've always adore Lee Hi (pronounced as Lee-Ha-Yi) unique voice. Ofcourse she's younger than me which make me more envious of her superb voice. It just have this r&b vibe in it. Believe me, you would fall for it in seconds. Hee. Oh, and another cutiepie! I never knew her name is Suhyun until I saw the singer of this song. I actually discover this song from a recommended mv on youtube. It just attracts me to click on it. Watching the mv, it is just so freaking adorable, argh. I just love the innocent stalker kinda concept. And of course in the end, no ones gets the boy. That's where it gets super cute. Their little impression, gestures, argh. Okay, back to Suhyun. She's an AKMU member, the sibling duet that have captivate many hearts through reality shows and had successfully caught my heart with 200% and Melted. ehem, haha. She's the younger sister, I think so. And she's adorable. I'm not sure how many years apart this two is, but looking at their faces seems like they could be on the same age. Which is awesome, cos their voices suit each other perfectly :3 I can't believe I could fangirling on this two, I have been replaying this song for quite awhile (meaning to show that I rly loved it). I totally have fallen for this song. Well, like I mention before in the mv it shows about this two sneaky stalkers who have the same likings for a boy. The cute part is they might seem competitive but they're actually in good terms. You need to watch the mv to really understand it. Hee. The meaning behind the song is maybe they're trying to prove that they're different from other girl that the boy might have ever met. maybe, it's just my opinion based on what i see and hear. Hee. Okay, you seriously need to hear it. Oh, forget to mention. The rapper, ahaa. I think the actor in the mv and the rapper is the same person but then I'm too lazy to look up for it. LOL. But the rapper is also awesome. I don't know why but his vibe is just so cool eventhough his part is very short. Maybe because in the mv, the part is distribute to a solo part where the guy actually revealed that he owns a girlfriend. Ahaa, plot twist! LOL, okay enough of me fangirling, you should definitely go and watch the music video, like right now! Go! :DD
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